When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you. Isaiah 43:2
As we were in church on Sunday, I was asking God for some encouragement. The last 3 weeks have been plagued with health issues. I feel J and I are like those blow up toys with the weighted bottom, that kids knock down and they pop up again. Except it feel like there is a puncture in ours and we can’t bounce back as quickly or get all the way up any more.
God never promised me that while I am here on earth that everything would be a bed of roses. But He did promise to be with me always. He promised that I would not be overcome and overwhelmed. At times it is so difficult to stand and believe. There are moments when all I want to do is hide and cry.
In this season where things are tough, I have been amazed at the stupid things people say. I have heard everything from “God put you two in this situation to teach you something”, to “God must have some awesome plan with your life, so He is making a testimony through Jeremy’s suffering”. I mean…really?! God isn’t standing over me and thinking, “Why can’t she/he keep it together?” or “You will be tougher and stronger after this”. God is on my side. He already fought on my behalf and completed the work on the cross. It isn’t my job to strive and fight. It is my job to believe. And when I am having a moment where my emotions are seeping through my eyes and my heart is heavy, He is right there. His arms of love and grace are open.
He said He will be with me. As I read Isaiah 43:2, those words rang over and over in my heart. God is with me. No matter what I go through in life, He is there and getting me through. His hand is strong to save me, to lift me up. He covers me with His wings. He is my sheild. He is my fortress.
It is in this season that I am truly finding out what it means to abide in the secret place (Psalm 91). Psalm 23 and Psalm 91 have become a reality in our lives. There are so many times where I know the situation with Jeremy should have ended differently and in tragedy, but God has not left us. He has carried us and taken us through the valley. He will continue to do it over and over again.
Keep standing. Keep believing. Keep holding on. The promises of God bring hope. And hope anchors you.
Keep livning life courageously and boldly!
From my heart to your
P.S. Below I have added links to AWESOME worship songs which have encouraged me in the tough times. Worship keeps your heart focused on God and His promise.